I would like to share a story of how God recently touched my life. We are always faced with troubles, fears, and worries in life. And most of the time I take in stride. But lately its just been not one or two or three things, but everything all at once. I've just been unable to cope, unable to sleep with one thought after the other keeping me up into the late hours of the night, and when I'm awake during the day all that consumes my head are the worries, fears, and frustrations. I eat and I'm left hungry. I drink and I'm left constantly thirsting for more. My mind was constantly occupied by the questions of what if this or what if that and then there are my various resolutions being played out in my head. It was so exhausting, lonely, and miserable being trapped in my own web of never ending worrisome thoughts. One of the many things on my mind was a test I've been studying for and getting ready to take. The pressure had been building up in the days leading up to this exam and I had just become so unraveled and it was really starting to effect me physically. On the day of the exam, I was physically trembling, I found it hard to breathe, and all focus was starting to diminish. I was driving to the exam location and all of a sudden I felt this pressure over my chest (in my heart). After a minute or so, I felt the pressure start to lift, slowly, slowly, and then it was gone. But when the pressure disappeared, all my thoughts of worries and fears disappeared with it. I sat there searching for those thoughts that had just been their a second ago and could not find one. It was like someone had turned off a switch in my head and just like that a burden had been lifted from me. It felt so good, so heavenly to not have a single thought in my head. It was then that I remembered I had asked God to give me peace the night before. I had planned to study for another 3 hours before I had to take the exam, but when that light switched off, in its place were just thoughts of the goodness and grace of God. I spent the next three hours praising my God with words of praise, singing hymns, and praying. When I went to take the exam, it was so surreal. I was so calm, focused, and filled with confidence; every answer came to me with ease, and I had extra time to double check each question. For this exam, I had prayed for God to give me wisdom and intelligence and so forth, but God gave me much more than that; He gave me exactly what I needed.
Many times I have already found the answer and I simply pray to God to provide accordingly adding "if it is His will". But it is only when I am completely lost and at his full mercy leaving it all to Him to bear, that He profoundly answer me.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
Matthew 11:28-30 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.“